Asthma Attack

I can barely lift my feet.
Lungs held in a vice of worry.
Frozen uproar hits my face
straight on.

I am a fish drowning on land.
Breath does not translate.
All energy is draining
out of me.

Snowstorm, inner storm.
Anxiety rising way beyond.
The taillight flickering
in and out.

Everyone is up ahead.
And yet the hill keeps rising.
I wish I were just tired
or a bit puffed.

That’s likely what they think.
That I am a drama queen.
Who just can’t handle
some discomfort.

I’m wading through treacle.
Longing for medication
that translates breath
into life.



No Adventure Time

I want to be on top of a mountain
I want to drift on the ocean
I want to dig naked toes in sand
I want to slide down a slope on my bum

I want to jump into the ice-cold sea
without my steamer
I want to camp wild
hot coffee without creamer

I want to fight my way uphill
I want rain in my face and wind in my hair
I want to cycle through overgrown woods
I want to race downhill on my bike
I want to smell pine resin
I want to smell petrichor

I want to hear the silences
The silence of the ocean
The silence of the forest
The silence of bare feet on grass
The silence of the wind

I want to breathe in freedom